(July 23rd, 09)
So I found a cute boy … things aren’t going as I want. He doesn’t call, when i called yesterday he didn’t answer and I made a point to let him know I was off yesterday (so was he). I’m always off the same days (Wed &Sun) and he knows that. Never has he asked me to do something on our days off so why am I waisting my time? Ironicly the handy dandy book "He’s just not that into you" was sitting near by. I re-read the chapters that apply and once again I’m an idiot. So, I’ve deleted his number and I’m moving on … why is it so difficult to find a boyfriend?

Rules that apply from "he’s just not that into you"

"Meeting someone you like is supposed to make you feel better, not worse" page 32
"If he’s not calling you, it’s because you are not on his mind." page 34
"You deserve a f*ing phone call" page 34

I’m guiltly of the "Give me a call"; page 14 & "If you are the aggresor, if you have to purse if you have to do the asking out, nine times out of ten, he’s just not that into you"; page 17.

For example: Just the other night when I was leaving work I said "Call me when you get off" & he did. He let my phone ring 0.05 times and hung up - my phone rang just enough so I had a "missed phone call" so technicaly he called and when I called him back … you guessed it he didn’t answer! (Yes, I know I’m an idiot.)So, now I have to impliment "Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking"; "If you can find him, he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will" (Which wouldn’t be hard since we WORK together) & "Men don’t forget how much they like you. So put down the phone."

Also, there have been a few nights he gets completely waisted and I’m not into that either. Not only did he drink past his limit but there are many nights he doesn’t even remember … and drives while intoxicated so why am I waisting my time? Am I really that desperate? If there is one thing I’ve learned it’s that people don’t change so if this is how he enjoys spending his free time is it what I want? Do I want to worry about him drunk driving? Do I want to be the adult in the relationship and beg to drive? No, I don’t so now I just have to remember all these things and move on.So, I will not make any more effort. I will not call (hence deleting his number so I can’t!). I will not hint around that Im off and would like to do something w/ him. If he likes me he’ll put fourth the effort - but do I want him? No. I can do better. So, today I’m moving on. I should’ve done this weeks ago when I first felt this way.